How do you really tell if it’s a positive or just an evap line?

I took two walgreens test..one yesterday, and one today. My apartment is always really dark without any natural light hardly. It looked negative to me at first, but I didn’t wait until the test had been 3-5 minutes old..I looked at it after like 1-2 minutes and left the room. About an hour later I was looking at the test and when you hold it up in the light I can see another line there, and since the lines use a blue color the extra light line does indeed look somewhat blue…it’s very very light though……i took a dollar store pregnancy test just now and it was negative. I am so sick to my stomach though..actual puking, and my boobs hurt so so so bad when it happens…no period yet either..i haven’t had a period since the end of september, but i know i ov’ed late!

Giving my baby away? Am I making the right decision?

Hello,
I am pregnant with my baby Amisha! She is due in early March. She is small and due early. My last pregnancy resulted in miscarriage at 5 months! Anyway me and my partner weren’t planning a baby and we don’t want to keep her due to personal reasons. We disagree in abortion so I am having her adopted. Until then though she is mine and I am treasuring our time together, I understand why my partner doesn’t want the baby and I agreed at the time but now I feel so attached to her after spending 9 months with her. It isn’t my partners baby but he says it makes no difference. We aren’t ready for a baby as we are just young and foolish but I feel so sad to see her go. We’ve already arranged to have her picked up from the hospital by social services as soon as she is born. I’ll get an hour at the most with her. I’ve met the family that is interested and they seem lovely but they want to rename her. I know they can but I’d like her to keep her name as my partner chose it and it’s from his culture. I don’t know what to do. The family want to name my child Eve, that just doesn’t feel right.

Help me please! I want whats best for my baby!!!

Amisha’s mummy xx

I have asked this question before and everyone is saying my partner’s nasty and I’m better off without him but we both made the desicion as soon as I found out I was pregnant. He loves me very much and our parents both disagree with us having a baby. Amisha will be beautiful, he firstly asked me if I wanted it and we talked it over but he wasn’t happy raising another man’s child but I understood because when I was a child my dad remarried and his wife never cared for me like she did her own cos that natural love just wasnt there. I wouldn’t want this for my child and he would feel uncomfortable about it. He said he would support me in any desicion apart from abortion. He seems to think the adoptee to be family are older and more sensible than us. As far as naming her Eve, my partner is unhappy about that but he says sacrifices have to be made,

This all feels wrong yet my partner says that when we are ready we will have a baby together and it will be right not wrong.
That too would be hard to tell my future child.

I’m so stressed!!!

iTunes shuffle survey for the bored?

here are my answers!:

Opening Credits: We Like To Party!
Your mom finds out she’s pregnant with you: All Around The World
Slideshow of her pregnancy: Cavanaugh Park
While she’s delivering you: BaSel
Your first birthday: Don’t Stop
You growing up: Ghosts N Stuff
Your first day of school: Trance Up
Meeting your first friend: Snowbound
Your first day of middle school: I Hope You’re Alone
Meeting your first crush: Tenement Yard
Your first kiss: Say What You Want
Fighting with your parents: One Week
Fighting with your friends: London’s Calling
Breaking up: Maps
Your first day of high school: Come On Eileen
Your sweet sixteen: Ageless
Your first time having sex: Comeback Kid
Your 18th birthday: I Like It Rough
Your graduation ceremony: Jesus Christ Pose
Your first day of college: Escape From IP1
Your first college party: Natural Anthem
Meeting your true love: Goodnight Goodnight
Getting married: Just Because You Can’t See The Sun Doesn’t Mean It’s Not Shining
Finding out you/your spouse is pregnant: Typo Spies
Having your first child: Push
Getting old: Who’s Your Daddy
Your spouse gets sick: Living In Jungles
They die: Hoe Down
At their funeral: Versions Of Me
You end up in the hospital: Love Almost Everyone
Your death: Skyfire Ace
Your funeral: Mansard Roof

People’s Themes
Yours: Lashes
Your best friend: Happy Up Here
Your first crush: Oldflame
Your mom: I’m A Lady
Your dad: Will I Ever
Your sibling(s): She’s So High Above Me
Your worst enemy: Pulp Fiction Theme
Your signifigant other: One Shot, Two Shots
Your first child: Supermart
Your first grandchild: Black Girls

What You Listen To When…
You’re happy: Snakes And Martyrs
You’re upset: Another Girl Another Planet
You’re angry: Only One
You’re depressed: Don’t Stay Home
You’re cleaning: Ensename
You’re working out: Vertigo
You’re bored: Prelude
You’re doing homework: Hanasakajijii (four: a great wind, more ash)
You’re eating: Hello Alone
You’re thinking: Inspiration
You’re going to sleep: Hands Down
You’re feeling sick: Lives
You’re going shopping: Woe
You’re hanging out with your friends: Dancing On The Blacktop
You’re on a date: Innocence
You’re having sex: Loose Ends
You’re at a party: Interloper
You’re driving: Blood To Bleed
You’re on a plane: Love Is Noise
You’re relaxing: Stop & Stare
You’re on vacation: Crosstown Traffic

Random
Your friends think your theme is: Coin Return
Your family thinks your theme is: Fucking In The Bushes
Your signifigant other thinks your theme is: Blind
What reminds your enemy of you: Namida Vacuum Sound
What song makes you sad: Better Man
Makes you happy: Feels So Good
Makes you mad: Summer Hit
Gives you energy: Care A Little For Caroline
Makes you tired: Wet Sand
You love to hate: Narc
You hate to love: Missed Me
Makes you think: Speculation
Makes you wonder: I’m Lonely
What song inspires you: Whatsername
Motivates you: I Wish You Were Here
Makes you feel invincible: Swing

Even More Random
When you trip: Techno Rave House
When you fall: Schizophrenia
When you’re trying to look cool: Chemistry Of A Car Crash
When you have no idea what’s going on: If You Hate Your Friends, You’re Not Alone
When you can’t figure something out: The Strength To Go On
When you’re dancing around the house cuz you’re home alone: Obstructed View
What you sing in the shower: Machines
When you’re getting dressed: Everywhere
When you’re talking on the phone: Fresh Tendrils
When you’re sneaking out: Messy
When you get caught sneaking back in: Mr Maker
When you think about life: Track Playgirl
What actually sums up your life: Same Outfit
How people will remember you: Higher Ground
How you want people to remember you: Baby, You Win
The best song out there: The View
The worst song out there: Rakim
Worst song by the best artist: Wild Wild Life
Best song by the worst artist: Nothing Compares 2 U
Ending Credits: Little Rhymes

Fill in yours!

30 weeks pregnant with an a@#hole’s baby?

I was wondering if anyone has gone through the same thing. I’m 30 weeks pregnant with my third child. After I was pregnant with my first child, I gained weight from quitting smoking and the only food that seemed to stay down was something fatty (I don’t know why that was the case). My “fiance” (I quote it because I don’t feel like he really is that to me) got embarrassed of me and treated me like I was shameful. For example: We went fishing together ( he was fishing and I just watched him, oh what fun!) and his favorite lore got caught on a rock in the middle of a lake. He was bummed so I swam out and got it. I came back up drentched and I apparently wasn’t attractive enough to stand next to him anymore, because he walked away from me and said “I don’t know you, don’t come near me”. I think the only other people that saw me were two old men. We stopped going places together and I knew I gained some weight while I was pregnant, but it justified the fact that I didn’t have my same figure anymore. After I had my first child, I was the primary caretaker and he went to work to support our new family and only played video games when he got home and didn’t want to spend time with any of us. 3 months after, I got pregnant with my second child. He told his mom that I pressured him into doing it and this made me feel like he wasn’t proud to say he was having another baby. I didn’t get much support of anything from him for either pregnancy and I started getting really upset from here on out because I felt trapped. 6 months after I had my second child, I was pregnant with my third baby and now I’m 30 weeks along. The sex is only twice a month, he plays online games and doesn’t pay attention to the kids he has and I still don’t receive any support. He only wants to go to prenatal visits if they are ultrasounds or if I’m going to give birth. To add to everything, he is a big baby. He got mad because I only made the kids something to eat and not him and kept saying to the kids “I bet you have a full belly”. I keep trying to leave him, but I have no where else to go. My credit got messed up from identity theft and now I can’t qualify for any places around here without clearing up my records which is impossible to do apparently.

Can someone give me advice on what to do? I don’t want to be with him anymore and I have no where else to go. He’s a dickhead and I want a real man in my life that will acknowledge me and give me credit for what I do. I got to college while having small children in diapers which isn’t easy to do, but he told me I was on “vacation” because I didn’t work. When I finally got part time jobs, he made me quit them because it was cutting into his social life and hunting time (which he has no social life and hasn’t hunted in two years). Even a full time job working 16 overtime each week wasn’t good enough for him and made me feel guilty for “leaving my kids”. I can never win with this man. I also want to have a natural birth because both of my kids were c-sections and he thinks I’m going to be stretched out for sex. I’m torn, fed up, and I don’t know what to do…I need advice!! Please Help!!
The only family I have would be my mother who isn’t stable and I don’t want my kids to live with that kind of person. But I do feel better when I go over there and get away from him, so it’s almost like a lose, lose situation. And when I do go over to my mom’s he calls me and treats me like he loves me and wants to have the kids with him, but when I finally come back here, he goes back to not wanting either of us. I don’t if it’s a game or if he only misses us being away.